westerpark

some pics from my walk the other day.

our tree. so sad.

i would just like to announce that i am wearing pigtails. i don't know what that means, but i don't think it's good.

amsterdam

i realized yesterday that i hadn't posted any pics of amsterdam. so here are a few. i was also inspired yesterday to take some videos while cycling. probably the video would include a not so lovely crash if i did that, so i'll wait 'til the next time i'm riding on the back of a bike to take the video.

frost

Reluctance
by: Robert Frost

Out through the fields and the woods
And over the walls I have wended;
I have climbed the hills of view
And looked at the world, and descended;
I have come by the highway home,
And lo, it is ended.

The leaves are all dead on the ground,
Save those that the oak is keeping
To ravel them one by one
And let them go scraping and creeping
Out over the crusted snow,
When others are sleeping.

And the dead leaves lie huddled and still,
No longer blown hither and thither;
The last lone aster is gone;
The flowers of the witch-hazel wither;
The heart is still aching to seek,
But the feet question 'Whither?'

Ah, when to the heart of man
Was it ever less than a treason
To go with the drift of things,
To yield with a grace to reason,
And bow and accept the end
Of a love or a season?

Into My Own
by: Robert Frost

One of my wishes is that those dark trees,
So old and firm they scarcely show the breeze,
Were not, as 'twere, the merest mask of gloom,
But stretched away unto the edge of doom.

I should not be withheld but that some day
Into their vastness I should steal away,
Fearless of ever finding open land,
Or highway where the slow wheel pours the sand.

I do not see why I should e'er turn back,
Or those should not set forth upon my track
To overtake me, who should miss me here
And long to know if still I held them dear.

They would not find me changed from him they knew--
Only more sure of all I thought was true.

Desert Places
by: Robert Frost

Snow falling and night falling fast, oh, fast
In a field I looked into going past,
And the ground almost covered smooth in snow,
But a few weeds and stubble showing last.

The woods around it have it--it is theirs.
All animals are smothered in their lairs.
I am too absent-spirited to count;
The loneliness includes me unawares.

And lonely as it is that loneliness
Will be more lonely ere it will be less--
A blanker whiteness of benighted snow
With no expression, nothing to express.

They cannot scare me with their empty spaces
Between stars--on stars where no human race is.
I have it in me so much nearer home
To scare myself with my own desert places.

recent happenings

elke and me at the airport

neal and me, joa's parents ;)

katja and ben freek, you're looking a little blue...
mark in my sweater
jay reading the magicians nephew

sixpence none the richer

Dizzy

I'm like Thomas's doubting fingers
running the scars Your wrists and side
touching flesh will make my mind believe

I want to be like David throwing his clothes to the wind
to dance a jig, in my skin
to be re-made by your cleansing again

I gave you myself
it's all that I have
broken and frail
I'm clay in your hands
and spinning I can see all
is it only Israel
for you my love

I want to be like David throwing his clothes to the wind
to dance a jig, in my skin
to be re-made by your cleansing again

Breathe Your Name
It's every day
I'm in this place
I feel this way
I feel the same
It's every day
I'm in this place I feel this way
I feel the same

Is it all inside my head
Is it all inside my head
I view my lips
And take my pick
I view my faith
And make a choice
'Cause it's nobody else's but mine

But you are in my heart
I can feel you're deep
And I lose my mind
From behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name

So many days within this ways
I need the truth
I need some grace
I need the path
To find my place
I need some truth
I need some grace
The part of you
That's part of me
We'll never die
We'll never leave
And it's nobody else's but mine

You are in my heart
I can feel your beat
And you move my mind
From behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name

You'll view their lips
And take your pick
You'll view my faith
And make a choice
'Cause it's nobody else's but yours

You're in my heart
I can feel you're deep
And you move my mind
From behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name

'Cause you're in my heart
I can feel you're deep
And you move my mind
From behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name

Within a Room Somewhere
I breathe the mist
floating about the stars
I can caress with velvet hands
I breathe the mist
floating within, without this pen
this pen between my fingers

Messiah
I know you are there
within, without me holding me
Messiah
I know you are there
catching, carrying
this beautiful mess

escape the pain
within a room somewhere
escape the pain
so deep inside the soul
I have no key
no map to find

Love
"You must be the seed. Descend into the earth.
Searching for the union of death, and then rebirth."

But I need love. It is patience, it is kindness.
I need love. It is rain after the dryness.
I need love. Sister Wisdom, help me see
It's the one thing that I need.The only thing that I need.

"The Harvester is near. His blade is on your skin.
To plant a new beginning." Well then let the cut begin.

But I need love. It is patience, it is kindness.
I need love. It is rain after the dryness.
I need love. Sister Wisdom, help me see
It's the one thing that I need.
The only thing that I need."

The Harvester is near. His blade is on your skin.
To plant a new beginning." Well then let the cut begin.
Let the cut begin.