.i love the beauty of the impossible.

photo taken on big hill, northwest territories
june '09

.monsters and grace.

a raging sea dinosaur
roars up out of my imagination and
soon my arms and legs are curled up in unrelenting tentacles
which begin to
s q u e e z e
s q u e e z e
squeeze
oh so tightly!

how do i get loose?
my breath quickens in short gasps
now being dragged under the sea

somehow, i feel calm in the murky green abyss
my hair floating around me
and then
i see my unmoving body
as if from a distance
clenched in the grip of ever-tightening tentacles

suddenly
the sea dinosaur releases me
with a loud groan.
i am back in my body, thrashing for the surface
my lungs desperate for air
head above water
my feet soon touch bottom
as i near the shore
collapsing on wet sand
chest heaving damp wind

i glance back to see a sword flashing
loud crashes coming from a flailing sea dinosaur
appendages blindly sweeping
searching for danger
but missing the source
a clever otter dances around the dinosaur
wielding effortless yet fatal strokes
as the power of the sea dinosaur
d i m i n i s h e s
d i m i n i s h e s
diminishes
until the pieces of its lifeless body
sink
s i n k
s i n k
to the bottom.

i am saved.

.winter walk.

.select photos from europe.

.so...i'm posting a very small selection of photos from my recent trip to europe. if you want to see more, go here or here.

.this picture was taken in the vatican city. yes, i have some pictures of the sistine chapel...but i decided to post a picture of this sweet staircase instead.

.these are some of the ruins littering the landscape of rome.

.the coliseum.

.trevi fountain.

.more ruins. and flowers.

.drinking box wine.

.pompeii.

.the david.

.pisa.

.cinque terre.

.roz and beth watching the sunset in cinque terre.

.sun set with bird.

.nap time in nice.

.venezia.

.sad story...the gondoliers don't actually sing.

.innsbruck...a rainbow after a long day of hiking.

.mozart balls.

.on top of the fortress in salzburg.

.i really liked this door.

.neuwschwanstein.

.view of paris from montmartre's sacre coeur.

.the fireworks on my birthday. best. fireworks. ever.

.the eiffel tower at night in black and white.

.the hiding place. the corrie ten boom museum in haarlem.

.roz and beth in a giant wooden clog in amsterdam.

.joa and benjamin in voorhout.

.smiling benjamin.

.roz and me at st. paul's cathedral in london.

.possibly the highlight of my trip: seeing king lear at the globe theatre.

.grad photos.

Last night BethL commented that I hadn't updated this blog since January.
Also, I promised to post grad photos.
So, enjoy!

.everything.

sitting alone my mind tends to wander
to the things i think will satisfy me
and every time i think i get somewhere
i seem to end back at the start
and i'm stuck 'til i find the one who wants my heart

will someone say that

i will give you everything you need in time
i will love you more you see
right now

is it true that there's good somewhere inside of me
if i try my best it's still not enough
but trying only ever goes so far
and in the end i feel the same
and the good i want only ends in shame

will someone say that

i will give you everything you need in time
i will love you more you see
right now

all i want is your love
that you've given up for me
and now i have found all i need

~jackson waters

.scott phillips.

.still believing.

here he is in the spotlight taking the stage
stepping into the pressure to make no mistakes
sensing their expectations right from the start
he purifies his motivation and speaks from his heart…he says

i’m still doubting, still searching, still falling, still hurting
but until this breaking heart stops beating
you will find me still believing

flesh and bone, blood and skin
what would give you the notion that I’m better than this
‘cause temptation and heartache don’t care who you are
and to be honest, I’m tired of acting the part

but I’m learning, I’m growing, I’m gradually knowing
I’m made in his image, though not always showing
despite that, his grace and his love, they are flowing inside
but till the day I die, I will be

.so you would know.

last night I painted a sunrise with colors warm and deep
unveiled it in the morning to ease you from your sleep
oh, the mountains I have sculpted before you came to be
are the arrows of creation to point you back to me

so you would know that I am God
I have placed with love the stars above and everything below
so you would know

and for your eyes, the painted skies…the colors in a crowd
the drops of rain on window panes, the thunder in the clouds
oh, the taste of dew and honey too…the crystal flakes of snow
the beauty found the world around is yours so you would know

so come to me, receive your life you cracked and drying bones
and rise up with your voices loud…reclaim them from the stones